Month: January 2018

Old blueprint under attack…

Wednesday morning I awoke from a dream of being under attack.  To my recollection, I’ve never dreamed of being under attack before.  It was reminiscent of how people described the false missile alarm on Hawaii a couple of weeks ago.  I grabbed up my baby, gathered supplies, and went to find a safe place.

Wait!

What baby?

My babies are grown.

When I first woke, I thought it might’ve been my grandson I was holding and protecting.  The more I thought about it, the baby wasn’t a boy.  It was a girl.  And then it hit me…my blueprint was under attack and I was holding my inner child for safety.  Hmmmm.  One of the more obvious symbolic dreams I’ve ever had.

During last Sunday’s webinar, Mark talked about how the old blueprint was dying and how we’re dying to our old selves.  Immediately, this scene from Star Wars – The Empire Strikes Back came to mind:

Having watched this many years ago, I had always thought it foreshadowed Luke learning Vader was his father (spoiler alert! LOL!).  However, in light of the Master Keys experience and the Hero’s Journey, I also see it as Luke’s old self dying in order for him to become the Jedi Knight he needs to be.

Another observation from this week…I video chatted with my daughter who lives in Belgium.  I’m very thankful for the technology that allows us to see each other and not rely on only the written word.  During our conversation, she was telling me how thankful she was for her mother-in-law, a very lovely woman who has definitely made my daughter feel welcome in her family.  As I listened, I observed my feelings.  Only a few short months ago, I would’ve felt jealous and wondered why she seemed to prefer her mother-in-law to me.  Now I could only feel appreciation for my daughter being fortunate enough to have a mother-in-law who adores her and makes her feel like one of the family.  Progress indeed.

Because this week was somewhat of a review week, we had choices for our Master Key readings.  Going back to previous readings with the knowledge I have now revealed even more insights.  Now I was understanding what Haanel was saying.  Now I saw how far I’d progressed in the sits, remembering my early sits and how much I struggled to sit still and clear my mind.  My sits are still quite emotional, often ending in tears, yet I let them flow, knowing I’m grieving for that old self that’s becoming new.

And you know what…that’s OK! 🙂

To say that I adore my MasterMind partner Naila would be an understatement.  I’m in awe of how similar we are and how we were brought together through the Master Keys Master Mind Alliance.  A MasterMind partner is someone who will hold you accountable and tell you things you need to hear, even if you don’t want to hear them.  That person also holds a vision of your vision to help add energy and focus to it.

So why did Naila tell me I had a big but?  Well, she didn’t mean physically, thankfully!    Today was one of those rough days where so much cement was sloughing off, yet I kept putting it back on.  How was I doing that?  By saying the word “but” with every positive statement I said.  “I’m doing the right stuff, but nothing’s happening.” “I’m supposed to be the leader, but I feel like such an impostor.” “I want to reach this goal, but I’m afraid I won’t make it by the deadline I set for myself.”  You get the picture…

Naila asked could she point out something to me, and once I agreed, she said she had been counting the “buts” I’d been saying and had counted 6 in the past few minutes.  And here I was thinking that “uhs” were annoying.  Those “buts” are even more annoying.

Argue for your limitations and they’re yours.  It’s like two steps forward and one step back.  There’s forward motion, but it’s tiny.  So now I am aware of how many “buts” I use in my daily language speaking, and probably countless more in my head thinking.  If y’all catch me saying “but”, you have my permission to point it out to me as I’m rewriting my blueprint.

Speaking of permission, that was a word Mark used in Sunday’s webinar that grabbed my attention.  How often do we not give ourselves permission to do what we really want?  As one of the GRITS (Girls Raised In The South), I was a diligent rule follower.  I obey the speed limit.  I don’t stray often out of the box.  I did what my teachers asked of me.  Even this week as I slipped up on one of my daily MKMMA activities (my first), I sobbed because of the guilt of not following things exactly as I was supposed to.  Perfectionist much?  Why am I so hard on myself?  I have no problem granting grace to others…why can I not grant it to myself?

So this week, I gave myself permission in several ways.  On a morning where I still felt tired when my alarm went off and I didn’t have to be anywhere specific (thank you, snow days!), I verbally gave myself permission to sleep another hour and the day went so much better than if I’d pushed through without additional rest.  I gave myself permission to be successful and happy.  And I found recordings and videos that brought forth those feelings for me.  I gave myself permission to be myself.  What does that mean?  Well, I’m still discovering that, but (it almost slipped through!) and I give myself permission to take the journey and be raw, open, and vulnerable about what that looks like (future blog coming!).

We’re adults now!  We can give ourselves permission to live beyond the labels that were put on us or we adopted unknowingly.  To move forward toward that vision we want our lives to become.  In fact, we’re the ONLY ones who can give ourselves that permission.  No one else can.

So if you’re a chronic rule follower like I have been, give yourself permission to do whatever you dream!  It’s possible!

This week has been one of the most amazing weeks I’ve ever been through!

Kindness

Kindness is everywhere if you look for it.  It’s even better when you create it.  It’s been absolutely wonderful to see all the kindness examples in the Alliances!  As of publishing time today, we’re up to 6,231 acts of kindness and compliments on those acts.  That’s incredible from about 300 or so people!  And that doesn’t count the many that have been shared on Facebook and other social media platforms.

There really aren’t words for the joy I feel in my heart for seeing these kindnesses being performed and witnessed by our Master Key members!  Not that I was grinchy, but I kinda feel like my heart grew like the Grinch’s did!

Law of Relaxation

The 7 Laws of the Mind continue to reveal themselves to me in super cool ways.  This week, I was running behind for a meeting with one of my team members.  There was no way I was going to be on time.  My appointment was at 10am and it was 9:46 and I was 20 minutes away.  In the past, I would’ve rushed and also texted apologizing that I would be late.  But something told me to just relax.  I was listening to The Strangest Secret in the World and chose to relax and trust all was well.  As I turn on to Main Street, there’s a parking space right in front of the coffee shop where I’m to meet her.  (WIN!) I get out of the car and grab my stuff, pausing to look at my watch…9:59am.  I had made it with a minute to spare.  I’m sure people wondered why I burst into laughter standing beside my car on Main Street, but who cares!  I’ve taken that lesson with me all week long.  When I begin to worry about something, I trust that it’s all happening in the perfect timing.  It’s the first time one of my BHAGs (Big Hairy Audacious Goals) has felt achievable even though it’s a big one.  I now KNOW it’s unfolding in the perfect timing in the perfect way with the perfect experiences along the way.

So if you’re reading this thinking about joining in the Master Key MasterMind Alliance program for 2018-2019 or beyond…DO IT!  You’ll love the person you become along the way!

15-3. Difficulties, inharmonies, and obstacles, indicate that we are either refusing to give out what we no longer need, or refusing to accept what we require. 

15-5. We cannot obtain what we lack if we tenaciously cling to what we have. 

15-6. Nothing may reach us except what is necessary for our growth. 

15-7. All conditions and experiences that come to us do so for our benefit. 

15-8. We gain permanent strength exactly to the extent of the effort required to overcome difficulties. 

15-13. It is evident, therefore, that if we wish desirable conditions, we can afford to entertain only desirable thoughts. 

15-29. We can get only what we give; if we pledge ourselves to a certain action we must be prepared to assume the responsibility for the development of that action.

15-32. Insight enables us to be prepared for the obstacles which we shall meet; we can therefore overcome them before they have any opportunity of causing difficulty. 

These are the passages from Week 15 of the Master Keys that I highlighted.  This new year of 2018 has started out very good,  Yet the old blueprint rears its head every once and awhile to let me know it’s not dead yet.  I wonder why I doubt myself.  I look at the cards I’ve written out, countless examples of things I’ve done that I have been quite successful at.  Why should there be any doubt that I can do anything I want to achieve?  Who am I trying to prove myself worthy to?  The world?  My friends and family?  Myself?  Ah, perhaps that’s it.  By saying I’m worthy, I’m defeating the old blueprint that had me believing I had to prove myself.  That I wasn’t worthy unless I did X, Y, and/or Z.

The experiment shared in Haanel about the wingless aphids who grew wings because the rosebush they had been living on had died is symbolic of the old blueprint.  Do I have to wait until the blueprint is dead to grow my wings and fly?

Perhaps not.