Well, this week started out rough! Either I was upleveling BIG TIME, or I had been exposed to the flu that’s been dropping people like flies in my area. 
Either way, I spent Monday in bed reading and sleeping. Of course, the logical thing to have done would’ve been to read my Master Key materials even more. However, that’s not what I did. I felt active rebellion going on and refused to read them, other than I did read the week 19 passage once. No sits, no Greatest Salesman, no service cards, no affirmation cards, nada. Ironic considering that my Franklin Makeover word this week was self-control. LOL!
I dug in like a toddler who was throwing a tantrum and there was no way I was doing what I was supposed to do, other than rest and take my supplements to hopefully bypass whatever had a hold of me.
By Tuesday morning, I was feeling better physically (#guthealthROCKS) and yet really down on myself for not being consistent with my readings and promises. Had I ruined all my hard work of the previous 4 months? Would I not reach my goals as a result of my defiance? As I sat in my sit Tuesday morning, I pondered over this and asked, “What can I do to feel more confident?” Tears streamed down my cheeks, a frequent occurrence in my sits. Melting away old cement. After my sit was done, I watched the video Mark shared for the week – the coolest Ted Talk about Power Poses. As I’m watching, I’m realizing my answer had come to me! How freakin’ cool was THAT? Ask and ye shall receive IS true! If you just stay focused on what it is you want and not the absence of it, it’s amazing what will happen!
The rest of this week I have felt AWESOME! 
This passage from week 19 of the Master Keys has been demonstrated over and over to me this week…
19-17. You may know that thought constantly, eternally is taking form, is forever seeking expression, or you may not, but the fact remains that if your thought is powerful, constructive, and positive, this will be plainly evident in the state of your health, your business and your environment. If your thought is weak, critical, destructive and negative generally, it will manifest in your body as fear, worry and nervousness, in your finance as lack and limitation, and in discordant conditions in your environment.
So despite my defiance and rebellion, I’m back on track and feeling stronger than ever. Perhaps it was the last gasp from the old blueprint. Perhaps it was my mind and body being uncomfortable in its new location in time and space. Whatever it was, I give great thanks for it because it brought me to a new place and realization. I do have control over my response and I can create whatever I want! Like everything else in my life – the good, the bad, the ugly – it’s all part of the journey and I wouldn’t have it any other way!
Glad you are feeling better Vicki.
Happy you are back on track away from the grasp of your old blueprint. You got this!! 🙂
Thank you, Darlene! The grasp is less strong every day.
Wow Vicki ! Thanks for your honesty ! I totally agree with you on 19-17 of Haanel lesson ! Terrific… I am glad that you came back stronger than ever !
Thank you, Valerie! It’s become one of my fave passages.
I smiled when I read your blog today Vicki – My word this week was also funnily enough, ‘Self Control’ and I too felt defiant, but it showed itself in eating habits. Only last week, I spent the week doing a juicing detox and my word was ‘Discipline’ for that week and I was awesome. Then this week, I felt like I was rebelling against me, LOL!
So it got me thinking, what does ‘Self Control’ mean to me? – images of religious obligations flashed across my mind. Images of my mum telling me what I should and shouldn’t do, and feelings of loosing out and feeling disadvantaged where what I could discover.
I recognised that I had negative views of ‘Self Control’ and even though the next week I have ‘Taking Initiative’ as my focus for the week, I recognise, ‘Self Control’ will play a part in that so as to attach a more positive and forward-looking mindset to the word. So I shall do more digging around it and change what it means to me.
Thank you for your post.
Thank you, my sweet friend! Mine is Specialized Knowledge. I’m excited to see how that shows up this week! It’s so interesting how we had the same experience in rebellion against self-control. Great chat with Mark and Davene after the webinar about it today.
Neat! I found the TED talk imbbeded in your text and was able to watch it, as well as share it. Thanks again!
Yay, Jim! It’s a good one! Chat with you on Wednesday! 🙂
How precious is that, that you have your very own Life Encyclopedia right inside your Sits! Way to go taking care of yourself & bouncing back to healthy, too. You’re a Pro!!
Thanks, Linda. Those sits are precious times!
Adventures of the body! Glad you are back to AWESOMENESS!
YES! We all it’s all part of the journey!
Adventures of the body indeed! Thanks, Stephana!